As much as Joe likes being free of the "leash", he has, at times, verbalized the pros of the Ping and the cons of the POD. He continues to state that he prefers the POD. However, his frustrations with the switch to the Omnipod have not gone unnoticed by me. In particular the adhesion issues, the POD failures, and thus subsequently the added site changes.
My Dear Joe.. He rarely complains about the diabetes aspect of his life. I'm not sure if he thought the POD would make it more like he did not have diabetes. Granted it looks like "less" of a big deal than the tubing-ed pumps to an outsider, but "it", the POD, doesn't really take away the day~in~the~life of managing diabetes. I think Joe is starting to recognize that. It is difficult to watch.
A couple of evenings ago...after dinner time...
"I don't want to do a site change now ... can't you just do it at 4am?" Tears were pooling in his medial canthi. I could hear the emotion in his voice. (Btw this is very, very, very uncharacteristic of Joe when it comes to site changes)
The POD would be expiring at 4am. Apparently, Joe wanted me to just pop-up and change it at 4am. He wanted to procrastinate on the POD change. He was as close to begging, as one could be...without actually begging.
I held firm.
I explained that waiting 'til 4am wasn't a sound plan.
He rallied a bit. We changed the POD. He winced with the insertion. Tears slid down his cheeks in pain? frustration? defeat? I'm not sure which emotion the tears originated from.
Then Joe reached for me, for an embrace. He was silent as we hugged.
"I think Joe...I think what you are finding out...what we are figuring out...is that there is no perfect pump for managing diabetes. No matter what pump you use, you still have the diabetes and all that comes with it...the site changes...you still have accessories in the form of bands or pump packs...you still have to check blood sugars ... count carbs ... bolus...you still experience the highs and the lows. The technology doesn't take away the disease. It's still there."
Joe nodded, his head still nestled into my neck.
A day~in~the~life of recognizing the limitations of technology. It is not a CURE.